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[10 Aug 2009|09:48pm] |
So vacation was a blast. I am so sad its over. Vegas again for our sixth year next august. I have tons of laundry to fold... I just wanted to get on the computer. It is nice to be home though.
Preston is turning me into a jewelry wearing chick. He got me a Pandora last week. I am not going to lie I love it. Its just weird wearing any type of anything. But it was cute. He got me the hippo charm and a C.
Work is work. I wanted to die today.
And thats about all.
Life goes on.
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[31 Jul 2009|09:09am] |
My P comes home today.
Sweet.
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[21 Jul 2009|05:25pm] |
So today I called outta work. It's day two of whatever the fuck I had ripping though my body. I am quite confident I will be ok by tomorrow. I love how EVERYONE asked me if I was pregnant...yeah I don't think so. I used my juicer twice today and it helped a lot considering I couldnt keep anything else down. That might have been even better than eating considering I drank a whole nectarine like 50 cherries and practically a whole pineapple and an orange. I can tell it's replenished something in me because I am up and on the computer trying to nurse my boredom. Poor P is in the big apple with Chris and he is massively ill as well.. He missed work today too. :(
Next week is Vacay. Mine starts on Thursday and on Friday I am heading to Maine with my dad and the kids. My mom has a huge wedding she forgot about when we made the plans so she is staying home. We are going to go camping for the night and head to the beach the next day. Then that next day Prestons family is heading up to the same location where I will spend the rest of the week with them. It's no Vegas but I CANNOT wait. Just to be on the beach for a fricken week...And the Saturday that we come home is Scotts wedding. Woo hoo. I need to find something to wear lol.
I got a new camera and I am super stoked. It's like the smaller SLR's with out the option to change lenses. It's normally like $250 and I got it off craigs list for $140. Super deal considering it takes the most amazing pics EVER. I was super reluctant to buy it considering I am trying to save money for next week but how much money do you need on the beach? So needless to say my craving for a new toy are gone for the time being.
I am fucking starving..
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[11 Jul 2009|06:58pm] |
hahaha Oh Katt Williams.
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[26 Jun 2009|09:53am] |
A little update before I start my day.
Today is pay day. Thank goodness. I hate biweekly paychecks. I was going to treat myself to the ghostbusters game but I don't know. I haven't really been sitting around enough to blow $60. This summer has been starting off pretty nicely. I have been going to the gym pretty much everyday and loving every min. I starting spinning on top of body pump and the off days of just cardio. So far I have lost 20lbs. It has gotten me pretty pumped about everything. I have been counting calories and totally just eating pretty much raw, with the random protein shake every now and then. It's funny because whoever thinks losing weight this way is hard to achieve is dead wrong. I eat probably 1500 if not more LESS calories in a day than I was eating and I feel amazing. I am taking it little by little and by no means am I going to disappoint myself by tying to be this way forever but it's definitely THIS time something I know I am going to keep with me. I have never felt so in control and not miserable about myself.
The beach is almost to the day a month away. Thats another month to possibly lose another 20. I have an initial goal but honestly this time I am not trying to burn myself out with unrealistic goals that I will never achieve in the time that I give myself. I feel if I want this for real this time I will let nature take it's time. So far though she hasn't been bad to me. I think I have totally embraced the fact that the one person in this world that shares my body (so to speak) with me loves me no matter what my body has or does look like. Before I even started this journey he loved me just the same. So I am doing this just for me...
Ok enough about all the weight crap.
I am trying to sell my camera. I saw a cannon that I am in love with that I want really bad. Our next paycheck we get a bonus so that's an extra $250 in my pocket toward whatever. I am super thrilled about that. Yay best buy. I was debating getting the new iphone but quickly realized that it's not worth it this year. Last year we went nuts on the day it came out and got the 3g and that was so worth it but not this year. Oh Apple, thank you for finally coming out with a product I do not desire.
Uh I gotta get away from this computer. Ha off to the gym. Then work. UGH. Day off tomorrow. Transformers. Cool. Maybe a dip at the ole folks house.
<3
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[09 Jun 2009|09:05pm] |
Maine is coming soon.... I am very excited.
All these people I work with...they take a week off for vacay and just stay home and do nothing...
FUCK THAT.
Maine may not be a far away destination or like something nuts but it's not home.. And it's the beach for a freakin' week..plus Our five year anniversary falls on our vacation..And YES I am going to eat Lobster for the first time in 7 maybe even 8 years..It's something I greatly look forward to, not having eaten any meat in that long...Well besides the two scallops i paid $70 for in Vegas.
And Justin just announced that he will NOT be going...
bummer.
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[04 Jun 2009|12:39pm] |
I never know how to shut up..
I was just talking to Ann about how when I was venting about the apartment it wasn't a slam toward them but more toward living with Justin. I said it pretty loud and I think I also said I hate him...blah blah blah...Totally forgetting that he is up there. I don't think he heard me but I feel PRETTY shitty about it. Man oh man. I think hes actually still asleep but I feel like a huge piece of shit..
I hate this feeling..
Ugh I am so mad at myself.
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[13 May 2009|10:58pm] |
So the guys are staring a rob zombie cover band. haha. I have had nothing but his music pumping through my brain for the past couple of days because P is learning them. It's kinda silly.
Kristyn got into a car crash tonight and totaled her car. Mary got into a car crash on sunday night and totaled Bobby's car......It's kinda scary. Two good friends of mine crashing and totaling. Thank goodness both of them are okay. And also thank goodness Brayden wasnt in the car when Mary got into her accident. That is such a sad thought.
Work is making me super tired. I havent gone to the gym since saturday because of my leg and it's really bumming me out... I will be going tomorrow but I feel like I have been such a slacker although I really COULDNT go. But I really do see nothing but positive stuff in the next couple weeks for me.
tired.
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[12 May 2009|10:50am] |
So I am going off to work today.. MEH. Sarah called out and I could really use the money and brownie points. So I said yes...
I got on the scale today. It said I have lost a total of 6lbs. I mean obviously its not all fat but it's nice to be able to fit into my work pants again..How fucking embarassing. It's also good because I really havent been great with my eating. I have cut back a lot but I still feel like I could be eating a lot better... Went out with Steph on sat night and ate hu ke lau and had a few scorpion bowls so that didn't help lol.
ALSO my leg fucking KILLS. My tattoo came out AMAZING but it sucks to walk.. It's gunna kill my gym time this week too.. yah that's not cool...
SO I am off to work.. FML.
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[08 May 2009|11:55am] |
How is it that when I start to exercise and try to eat right i feel amazing and never want to go back to my old ways, but I somehow always do? This time I am hoping that I will fight laziness. I feel so amazing right now and I can't imagine wanting to stop. 12 weeks I keep telling myself...
Work in two hours.
Celtics tonight!
Body pump, Cobra Chrome, Hammons house, and Bar with Steph tomorrow...
Breakfast with mom Sunday and work.
:)
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[07 May 2009|12:01am] |
tonight was a night of being walked all over. too long of a night and too long of a story but i feel like a huge door mat. Just all night everything I did seemed to be dumb....
But on a good note im getting inked on monday. Ha it's kinda funny my last post about being over rushing into tattoos but Pat is leaving in a week and i just really want to get this one done. Kinda a spur of the moment thing but I am glad I went there. Kristyn is finishing her sleeve on sat and ill be there for that after my class.... I joined Golds and I am super stoked about this gym. Mad classes that are amazing. And just a small intimite place, where as planet fitness made me hate working out, this place is the total opposite. 12 weeks til we go on vacay and i wanna look cute on the beach.
Bed.
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[28 Apr 2009|10:14am] |
Today is my second day off in a row. It's quite amazing. Yesterday we hit up the beach. What a treat in April to enjoy the beach. It was super, considering lately I have felt like an inmate in my own home. Justin is officially fucking Audrey again and shes always here, with that rat Sadi. It's super annoying. Today I have a lot to do but I am happy to get it all done. Its annoying because I have been a super freak about cleaning and yet today I have to clean. Our bathroom sink is getting clogged once again and it's DISGUSTING. Our bathtub has started peeling and it that also is starting to drain slowly again. P will participate with dishes and other cleaning duties but Justin does NOTHING and I am starting to really HATE him in general. I wish we could just move out but this place dispite the bathroom is a good deal. I just want to be able to come home and love my living space and I don't. I love our room finally. And when it's clean the kitchen is nice but the bathroom makes me want to cry and the rest of the house I am never in so why should I care.
Im getting all my bills outta the way today which will be nice. Fridays pay check was going to go to a new tattoo but I do not feel like I want work done by Justin. He is a super weird guy and everyone's work either all look the same or is taking months to heal. I no longer desire tattoos as much as I did a few years back. I want more yes but I am not upset that I can't afford any.
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[17 Apr 2009|09:09pm] |
SO lately I really havent had to much noteworthy things going on in my life, and so I update still about once a week but it's never really a huge to do or anything. But tonight I just have this huge urge to write about whats going on in the house. In the past I wanna say maybe six months or so Preston and myself have become so utterly fed up with Justin. He is just an ignorant person and one that we just can't really relate to in any way. The biggest thing is that he feels he is somehow more mature than us and that he is above us when in reality he is so far from that. He has been in talks for about a year now about moving to Cali in about another year, but yet he has not taken any measures to even move himself in the right direction. He also wants to go to culinary school even though he just ended broadcasting scool about a year and a half ago and did nothing with it...And not to mention all the other classes hes taken in his life. He constantly makes fun of his friend who is five years younger than him because he has no "expierence" in life but yet he has nothing to show for anything either...
And now NOW he is talking to Audrey again... Her boyfriend of two years has grown a brain and dumped her and she has been all over Just like a fly on shit the past week in a half.. They havent hooked up or anything (well not that I know/care to know of.) But it's only a matter of time..
She plays video games now and has a cell phone. He cooks now and somewhat has his life calmed down and this happens. The reason why I post this is because I am guilty of receiving huge pleasure out of the situation. I know that this is not the ideal lifestyle for him and that it will only cause him pain and misery IF he does end up back with her but I so want it to happen. I want him to move out and realize that he could have used his broadcasting degree or moved to Cali and gone to culinary... I feel absolutely shitty about these feelings but I just cant help but want him to get out..
I am a sick person.
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[13 Apr 2009|05:34pm] |
SO Oliver got fixed today. It was a complete mess. I went to pick him up around four. The doctor told me that he had only one testicle that had dropped and that that could not locate the other and that it is still inside him. She also preceded too tell me that that can cause "feminisation" later on and that he will turn into a female. I questioned the doctor, and made sure that I heard her right but she knows more than me I suppose. It cost me $160 although I had the snap certificate and that seemed to be an awful lot but he also got his shots today too. I brought him home and realized he was bleeding all over the place and had to bring him back...They really did nothing for him but say hes fine. Then I get home and look up this missing testicle bs and pretty much everything I am reading about it says that this can cause hugs problems including cancer later on and a bunch of other crap...nothing this vet mentioned when I asked is it serious....So I am a little perturbed....not to mention that he MAY still be able to reproduce and spray as a result of this SO WHAT THE FUCK DID I PAY $160 FOR?!
gah!
Happy Monday.
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[28 Mar 2009|01:29pm] |
So today is my day off. Not much exciting stuff going on here. P is on nights these past two weeks so hes sleeping right now. Last weekend we ended up staying home because we were both super sick. I still have a funny sounding voice and cough.
I started my recieving job at bby. It's kinda nice just being in the back all day listening to music. It's also nice to be the only one with the job. Makes me feel kinda special..It's also neat because it doesnt look like ill be getting back onto the team this time around. There is just no work to be done. I guess it's kind of a sign because I really need to find something to do with my life. But it makes me sad to because I loved traveling and doing projects. It also sucks because of Bailey. He has been on my mind so much lately. I don't think I will ever get over losing him. It's like we lost a piece of ourselves that we will never get back. I just hope wherever he is, he is ok.
Bath time.
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[16 Mar 2009|09:13pm] |
So it's finally flip flop weather...woot. Had the past two days off. My current annoyance is our neighbors. They have people living in a winnebego in their driveway. I know times are tough but it's such an eye sore in our neighborhood. I wanna find out if it's legal or not and call the cops.. It's just so annoying.
Work is work...nothing new there. Then friday night casino... can't wait for that. I love the casino.
Next couple of weeks I will have like 80% of my debt paid off. That will be killer... And in the next month I will FINALLY be getting inked. Preston has convinced me to get my other foot done.... Ouch. But alas I will suck it up because i've been itching. I will be getting my last SS tattoo. After that I believe I am done. I need to venture off on to other things.
It's bed time. Just hada update on my boring life.
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[08 Mar 2009|05:03pm] |
I had a dream last night that he came back to us. It was so upsetting to wake up and think he was there for a spit second..
This weather is bringing me out of the shit mood ive been in for months.
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| Bon Voyage Nonnie |
[02 Mar 2009|08:23pm] |
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It happens every year and although it hasnt happened just yet it's coming up this weekend and it's starting to sink in. It's like I know it's coming but I think this year it's more guilt that is attacking me more than the fear of not seeing her again. I have had almost a YEAR to be with her and I have seen her about 3 or 4 times. This summer I was barely home but I could have taken time to see her more this winter, considering she stayed an extra almost 4 months. She is my favorite person in the world and I have been so selfish in not taking the time to go over and just kiss and squeeze her and pat her fluffy lil cloud hair. I think that it's just hard to see her so dependant on others. She hasn't gotten worse with her memory but she will never be the same again. I see Prestons grandparents and even though they ARE my grandparents I get kinda jealous because I wish I still had that. I miss the woman she use to be. Tbis never gets easier.
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[26 Feb 2009|05:48pm] |
So it's almost March. That hopefully means another month closer to the team being whole again. Right now the store is getting ready for PI. I have been working SWAT for a few weeks now and it's been going well. I like that I dont have to wear a uniform and I get out by one. It's also exhausting as well. I have been finding that I am falling into one of those comfortable routines where I work and dont do much else. It's not that I really have the money to do stuff but I definitely need a hobby. I need to try another crack at going to the gym and continuing going to the gym... haha.
I just really miss the team...
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[10 Feb 2009|11:04am] |
So this weekend was great. We had a cute/weird hotel in the middle of Manhattan and we basically walked to wherever we needed to be. Friday was just a crazy day. We ended up skipping out on dinner and just heading to the knicks/celtics game. I got my birthday gift there. Preston surprised me with a diamond necklace. I never asked for jewelery nor did I think I would like getting some but it was special and I am proud to wear it.
Sat we saw the wrestler because we could never find a theater near home that played it. It was great. We also went to the RnR hall of fame Annex. Its new. It was alright. The technology used in the building was awesome but it was lacking a lot of stuff. Hopefully it gets better in the next few years. Then we got some dinner before the blue man group. I am so glad we went to that show. If I could have taken pics of the theater I would have. It was like the size of our basement it was soooo small. The performance was awesome and we got a little surprise when one of the guys came up to us durring the show and completely slathered P's face in the blue. I almost peed it was so funny.
Sunday we had to travel with all our shit but it was ok. we did the NBC tour. AMAZING considering we got to go into Conans studio. I absolutely adore him and I am glad I got to see the set before he leaves. It is so small. On tv it looks fairly decent but again it was like the size of our basement.
All and all an incredible weekend. I finally got to go to NYC. Yeeehaaaa!
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